Well, It has been a very long year.

This year can't end soon enough.  2011 has been the roughest year yet.  Dallas and I almost split in March.  We finally got things worked out by June.  God is so good.  My church literally had to hold me up in prayer daily for those months.  We lost a dear friend in May and I believe that Mike gave his life to help us work things out.  everything happens for a reason.  God has a plan.  I had been depressed for a number of years.  I had some issues that had really bothered Dallas and I wouldnt take them to heart.  When he ask for the Divorce I finally got a grip on things.  I was about to lose the best person that ever happened to me other than Christ himself.  While working on our marriage Mike was in a terrible car crash,  he succumbed to his injuries and through that wreck Dallas and I began to talk.  Weeks later Dallas hit a deer on the Harley while riding down the highway at 65 mph.  He could have easily died.  God choose to spare him, and through both of those Dallas and I worked things out.  God is so good.  It wasnt easy putting things back together and forgiving eachother for the resentments and distrust that we felt.  I trust that God will continue to restore the feeling that continue to grow.

How Does God View Prayer? 09-26-10 PM

First of all to answer that question...God views prayer as communication with him.  To know God we MUST communicate with him.  Next question So why don't I?  OUCH!  I tell myself all the time I need to pray and read more so why don't I?  The kids are at school, just me at home.  I say that I don't think I pray good enough.  But no one is around to hear me but God.  I know he isn't gonna critic me prayer as to how it sounds and flows. 

As far as reading his word I never know where to start.  That is why I have decided to take my study bible and the scriptures from the weeks services and reread them and then see what other scriptures go with that scripture.  And follow them completely through. 

Matt 22:37  Love for God is Spelled TIME!   I must spend time with HIM. 

Luke 10:38-43  We need much time with God before we attempt work for God.  We must prepare ourselves with time with God.  Before we go do HIS work.  Otherwise how do we know what HE wants us to do.

John 15:5 We must abide in Him to bear fruit. 

It seems that sometimes my abiding in HIM is just when I need something.  OUCH!  God Forgive Me.

I have Got to start Giving God My ALL.....

My random thoughts on Sunday 09-26-10 AM

Wow, as I looked back on my notes today from a couple weeks ago, I noticed some thoughts after scriptures.  They were formed as prayers so I went back and read those scriptures to find why I thought those prayers at that time.    The Lord is so good.  Even though I fail HIM, HE never fails me.  Anyway back to my thoughts and scripture.

I Thess 5:17  Pray w/o ceasing.  We quit praying to soon.  I sometimes get frustrated when  I pray.  I have known people that have very elegant prayers.  I feel mine sound silly, never say the right thing, never know what to pray.  I have decided at those times just to Let God pray through me, or just praise God He knows the prayers in my heart.  Don't give up just worship the prayer will come.  I believe this is why I don't pray as much as I should I get frustrated.  I never pray aloud b/c I think it my prayer  is all wrong.  That some how people will judge me on the way I pray.  I know crazy right.  There have been a couple of times where I have prayed for some one over the phone or something but not normally.

Jeremiah 29:10-11,14 Talks about bring back from Captivity...Freedom.  I wrote this in my notes..It was really good that God brought it to my heart on this scripture...  Ifeel freedom in my heart today.  I didn't know the heartache of holding such hurts and angers from what happened 8 yrs ago would cause me to not feel freedom.

Acts 12:5 Peter in constant prayer by the church...And I wrote the following...Lord I send out prayer for Dallas and Matt.  Lord they ar emissing in church today.  I miss Dallas's joy for YOU.  I pray that you stir his soul to return to YOUR love.  Lord keep your hand upon both on these men.

This is my prayer after I reread and thought about all of it again.   Lord help me to walk right before all men.  Let your light shine through me in the darkest of times.  Lord I believe Dallas will come to you and ask for salvation.  This is the desire of my heart.  That we will be together in our walk with you.  I also believe that I need to be in constant prayer and word with you. 

The Lord is Good.

The Lord is so Good.  I love  the Lord so much.  Sometimes I feel I take him for granted though.  I was reading a blog today about false teachings, and it read that if you dont study God's word DAILY it is easier to fall into the teachings of false leadership.  It made me think about how I don't read my bible much, I need to STUDY it even, NOT just Read.  Lord help me be more sincere in my walk with you.  I need you to help me daily as I strive to get to know you through your word and daily prayer.  I need to Study your word.  I also need to talk to you daily to know your will for my life.  I need to commit my life to you completely not just do good works.  But really serve you.    I pray for salvation for Dallas.  Touch his heart Lord.  Lead him to your saving grace, Lord.  bring us together as a complete christian family.  Restore the love in his heart for you.